Princess Penguin Peanut ([info]psycho_peanut) wrote,
@ 2006-01-28 15:30:00
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The Truth Revealed
As you may have read in my comments from my original post, Shaun found my new lj and found out about Dave. We had a long talk early this morning and I gave him closure. He told me he wasn't fully attracted to me anymore because I've gotten fat, that really hurt. I knew it was the case and I'm glad he was honest. It's just I feel so ugly now. He wants me back but I can't go back. I won't be happy waiting another 4 or 5 years. I know I probably sound selfish, but as he had always told me, he always wanted me to be happy. I just feel so incredibly guilty. But I need to do what's right. I had a session with my new counselor yesterday. He told me I did the right thing. But I feel like an awful person. I feel so empty and lost. :(


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[info]sailorsaturn
2006-01-29 09:54 am UTC (link)
You did the right thing. I'm somehow clueless to who Dave is but the anon. LJ entries left by Shaun is unacceptable and shows how desperate he is to put the blame on you then quickly apologize afterwards.

That kind of hot/cold burst of replies is unacceptable and sounded like what most of my ex's have left on my own journal (hence why it is locked to friends only). Only time will heal all emotional wounds and as much as I want you to be happy, for the time being take the break one step at a time.

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[info]silvenwolf
2006-02-24 06:32 am UTC (link)
It's been a while... wondered how you're doing.

I'm one of the oldies still lurking around at LFA.

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[info]sailorsaturn
2006-02-27 07:28 am UTC (link)
Yes, I remember. I'm still alive in LJ, not posting in LFA because I'm too tired to catch up several months of missed entries. I'll be posting in a month or so since I'll be taking maternity leave from work at the end of April.

I'm doing fine. I'm 6.5 months pregnant and still very busy at work, which doesn't leave me with alot of energy left to stare at a monitor after work or on my days off (do enough of that already in my job). Still waiting on my husband's paperwork (now in Buffalo, NY instead of Missisauga, ON) and my husband is still in VT. :(

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[info]violetdoll
2006-02-03 04:44 am UTC (link)
I found you by accident but wanted to say hi because we have a lot in common. ♥

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glamicide
2006-02-05 11:24 pm UTC (link)
I saw you in the [info]addmedepressed community and I'd like to add you, if that's alright. =)

I don't know what exactly this post was all about but it sounds like Shaun (the one who called you fat, right?) clearly said that in some form of retaliation, he probably didn't mean it at all.

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xripvanwinklex
2006-02-20 08:37 am UTC (link)
Hey.. I saw your postings in the schizofriends and addmedepressed communities.. It sounds like we have a lot in common and I was just wondering if you'd mind if I added you? I too am looking for some friends I can relate to. Let me know and add me if you want.

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[info]silvenwolf
2006-02-24 06:33 am UTC (link)
Dumping someone is never easy; and going back to give them closure is more difficult.

But it shows that you are the better person and that you cared enough to make the effort. Love on occasion, is selfish; to be happy, you must look out for your own happiness first.

Be strong, believe you did the right thing.

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[info]lula_neith
2006-02-24 07:28 pm UTC (link)
We met in [info]schizofriends. I admired your desire to speak to your class about ignorance of mental illnesses. I wish you the best in moving forward with your life.

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[info]icia_starlight
2007-07-08 10:47 pm UTC (link)
Hey want to friend? I have Schizophrenia to and I am bi :)

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